i had a painful but a memorable week for this week,
just to share what happen first k..
i went to field camp for 4d3n..

we had to build tent in buddy buddy system,
we had to crawl, run, shoot, roll on the dirty area half nake as a punishments,
and lota punishments. i was the 2ic for the plattoon which have a participating strength of 57,
it's really not easy to get everyone to cooperate and not to be selfish.
so the poor Ics which is me and my IPPT gold buddy, got lots of punishments,
push ups, like hundreds of them and lots of running here and tere even @late night,
turn out and etc.

finally on the tuesday noon when we just started digging shell-scrape,

my buddy hyper-ventilated where i was just trying to hold back the attack,

so our sir started talking to us ,my sir gave a very touching talk,

afr my buddy got sent to the rest point,

than i felt a sudden numbness coming up, sleepy, pain in the stomach, ..

 my sergeant and friends ard me noticed it, i rmb my sergeant

said: mic dont hyperventilate now k, and i replied yes.

and once the letter is given out, and he said take some time to reflect,

one of the fellow bunk mates, cried and hyperventilated ..

i tried to go forward to help him but my friend pull me back saying that

 i'm getting a attack soon, dont go. and once i lean back i lost it...

i woke up in a place with alot of people ard me,

doctors and medics. nake and cold..

lots of needle holes on me and really painful all over..
than i notice i'm actually in the medical center,
not in field camp any more..not strength for food nor to pee,

i needed help to assist me in peeing, and my uniform is cut up.

i went into sleep, near 12.30 i woke up with a very painful wrist,
it's swollen and a medic and a doctor is with me saying that
my blood clot again for the second time which means
i was so deep slp that i pass the first time help. haha:)
 my blood pressure was low and hear beat was irregular,
they had to transfer to the other hand for injection and drip...
not forgetting that i'm still nake k but with a blanket covered.
than in the morning i forced myself to wake up, travel back to field camp,

continue to dig my shell scrape, i was told that 2 other best buddies nearly/cried for me..

they thought i died,, i would have so much unfinish if i just died of like this..
personally i nearly gave up on myself...i finish the camp and make thru it.. bottom line..
i survive and motivated after i read and got ur reply.
now u should believe that you're my energy bar.
i saw u when i was out, i swear i saw u facing me with ur back,
so cold, i called out but u just would face me..

haha i swear if u need me, i would crawl just to reach you. i promise.

BOOK OUT LO...
finally, cup walker is really nic o.o
they sell this pudding milk tea where there is really pudding inside
and pearls and the nice milk tea,
really take away alot of the pain in me haha.. relieve i'm alive...
had mac for dinner than had a good share of experience with my mum..
she's super worried sick the moment she told me that the medical center called her..
haha:) i know she cares.. thn of course part of the love,

nagging and also lots of treat of food..

Quote for this week:
Learning to love yourself, its the greatest love of all..

Girl: sorry i can't be by ur side when u tried to reach mi,

IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU REALLY NEED TO DO SOMETHING TO BE HAPPY,

THE CONSEQUENCES DON’T MATTER - NO MATTER HOW BIG THEY MAY BE.
But remember to inform me and i'll be there to take u away as fast as possible..
i wanna meet u asap..

this movie touch me and taught me more of love..
maybe u should try watching it.. let me be the right man for you..
i learned how to love..

last one week, it was really fun,
suppose to have IPPT but due to the rain (cat 1)
it was cancel, the whole day was resting, aerobics than rest again.. so fun yeah

than we had  urban op raining where we team up in threes and clearing buildings with blanks bullet,

blank bullet are bullets with gun powder , got sound and pressure but no bullets flying out.

look at the picture below and u will know. haha damn fun. 

this are a few pictures of the urban ops i'm talking about in this post cool hor.. haha children having fun while we're holding guns ..bang! bang!.

.lastly that's me in my smart 4 with my DSLR canon 500D . i miss u allot girl,,

next week for 5 days out field for camp and training no phone.. hope to see u soon.

wrote a song, 
under the dark sky...
lots of stars, and all i could thought of is u..


i wrote this Chinese song,
but sorry i cant send it to u yet, the voice,
the tone, the feeling is totally wrong.
i know u will understand,
because u only deserve the best from aun aun.

all the high key event start this week,
range shooting,grenade throwing and also IPPT..
i hope everyone will be safe and also I'll pass my IPPT.. 

wen , must pray for me o.o
i know u're very busy but come on..

and honestly, i carry a condom in my wallet around everywhere i go..

curious? ask me what do i mean by this phrase hahaha
(PS: Revenge of the SEXXX) :)


Title of this song: It is enough for me to be you in this world

  


i believe i know how he feels..
because the one i love is the most important in my heart too.

lastly , top 5 love song R&B
Super nice o.o

Painful conversation, left me with no where to run nor to hide.
All I can do is to tear quietly and back to training.
But u still are the world to me.

Oh oh, hand foot mouth disease out spread in my company.
Scared scared...

all the high key events are coming up,
flied camp,shooting,etc.
this week i completed my soc i manage to overcome my SOC(standard obstacle course)
where there is high wall, rope, and more but the one which i scared the most,
the wooden ladder where we cant use our hands just run up and down the ladder.
i shouted out for ur name and i made it through the second time.
you gave me the courage to hang on, to determine but not the courage to go afr u,
where is the courage to love u, look up for u and grab ur hands.

new song to share..
perfect by hedley... the lyrics are for u:)





Perfect lyrics

Falling a thousand feet per second
You still take me by surprise
I just know we can’t be over
I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence takes a lot to realize
It is worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lye
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won’t fall even if you said I was wrong

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my personality

Making every kind of silence takes a lot to realize
It is worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lye
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won’t fall even if you said I was wrong

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my personality


When you’re caught in a lie
And you got nothing to hide
When you’ve got nowhere to run
And got nothing inside

It tears right through me
You thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my personality

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my, just myself
Just myself
I’m not perfect but I keep trying