tire, really tire...
i could sleep even standing..

testing me, everything.. give up..

i had a painful but a memorable week for this week,
just to share what happen first k..
i went to field camp for 4d3n..

we had to build tent in buddy buddy system,
we had to crawl, run, shoot, roll on the dirty area half nake as a punishments,
and lota punishments. i was the 2ic for the plattoon which have a participating strength of 57,
it's really not easy to get everyone to cooperate and not to be selfish.
so the poor Ics which is me and my IPPT gold buddy, got lots of punishments,
push ups, like hundreds of them and lots of running here and tere even @late night,
turn out and etc.

finally on the tuesday noon when we just started digging shell-scrape,

my buddy hyper-ventilated where i was just trying to hold back the attack,

so our sir started talking to us ,my sir gave a very touching talk,

afr my buddy got sent to the rest point,

than i felt a sudden numbness coming up, sleepy, pain in the stomach, ..

 my sergeant and friends ard me noticed it, i rmb my sergeant

said: mic dont hyperventilate now k, and i replied yes.

and once the letter is given out, and he said take some time to reflect,

one of the fellow bunk mates, cried and hyperventilated ..

i tried to go forward to help him but my friend pull me back saying that

 i'm getting a attack soon, dont go. and once i lean back i lost it...

i woke up in a place with alot of people ard me,

doctors and medics. nake and cold..

lots of needle holes on me and really painful all over..
than i notice i'm actually in the medical center,
not in field camp any more..not strength for food nor to pee,

i needed help to assist me in peeing, and my uniform is cut up.

i went into sleep, near 12.30 i woke up with a very painful wrist,
it's swollen and a medic and a doctor is with me saying that
my blood clot again for the second time which means
i was so deep slp that i pass the first time help. haha:)
 my blood pressure was low and hear beat was irregular,
they had to transfer to the other hand for injection and drip...
not forgetting that i'm still nake k but with a blanket covered.
than in the morning i forced myself to wake up, travel back to field camp,

continue to dig my shell scrape, i was told that 2 other best buddies nearly/cried for me..

they thought i died,, i would have so much unfinish if i just died of like this..
personally i nearly gave up on myself...i finish the camp and make thru it.. bottom line..
i survive and motivated after i read and got ur reply.
now u should believe that you're my energy bar.
i saw u when i was out, i swear i saw u facing me with ur back,
so cold, i called out but u just would face me..

haha i swear if u need me, i would crawl just to reach you. i promise.

BOOK OUT LO...
finally, cup walker is really nic o.o
they sell this pudding milk tea where there is really pudding inside
and pearls and the nice milk tea,
really take away alot of the pain in me haha.. relieve i'm alive...
had mac for dinner than had a good share of experience with my mum..
she's super worried sick the moment she told me that the medical center called her..
haha:) i know she cares.. thn of course part of the love,

nagging and also lots of treat of food..

Quote for this week:
Learning to love yourself, its the greatest love of all..

Girl: sorry i can't be by ur side when u tried to reach mi,

IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU REALLY NEED TO DO SOMETHING TO BE HAPPY,

THE CONSEQUENCES DON’T MATTER - NO MATTER HOW BIG THEY MAY BE.
But remember to inform me and i'll be there to take u away as fast as possible..
i wanna meet u asap..

this movie touch me and taught me more of love..
maybe u should try watching it.. let me be the right man for you..
i learned how to love..

last one week, it was really fun,
suppose to have IPPT but due to the rain (cat 1)
it was cancel, the whole day was resting, aerobics than rest again.. so fun yeah

than we had  urban op raining where we team up in threes and clearing buildings with blanks bullet,

blank bullet are bullets with gun powder , got sound and pressure but no bullets flying out.

look at the picture below and u will know. haha damn fun. 

this are a few pictures of the urban ops i'm talking about in this post cool hor.. haha children having fun while we're holding guns ..bang! bang!.

.lastly that's me in my smart 4 with my DSLR canon 500D . i miss u allot girl,,

next week for 5 days out field for camp and training no phone.. hope to see u soon.

wrote a song, 
under the dark sky...
lots of stars, and all i could thought of is u..


i wrote this Chinese song,
but sorry i cant send it to u yet, the voice,
the tone, the feeling is totally wrong.
i know u will understand,
because u only deserve the best from aun aun.

all the high key event start this week,
range shooting,grenade throwing and also IPPT..
i hope everyone will be safe and also I'll pass my IPPT.. 

wen , must pray for me o.o
i know u're very busy but come on..

and honestly, i carry a condom in my wallet around everywhere i go..

curious? ask me what do i mean by this phrase hahaha
(PS: Revenge of the SEXXX) :)


Title of this song: It is enough for me to be you in this world

  


i believe i know how he feels..
because the one i love is the most important in my heart too.

lastly , top 5 love song R&B
Super nice o.o

Painful conversation, left me with no where to run nor to hide.
All I can do is to tear quietly and back to training.
But u still are the world to me.

Oh oh, hand foot mouth disease out spread in my company.
Scared scared...

all the high key events are coming up,
flied camp,shooting,etc.
this week i completed my soc i manage to overcome my SOC(standard obstacle course)
where there is high wall, rope, and more but the one which i scared the most,
the wooden ladder where we cant use our hands just run up and down the ladder.
i shouted out for ur name and i made it through the second time.
you gave me the courage to hang on, to determine but not the courage to go afr u,
where is the courage to love u, look up for u and grab ur hands.

new song to share..
perfect by hedley... the lyrics are for u:)





Perfect lyrics

Falling a thousand feet per second
You still take me by surprise
I just know we can’t be over
I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence takes a lot to realize
It is worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lye
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won’t fall even if you said I was wrong

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my personality

Making every kind of silence takes a lot to realize
It is worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lye
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won’t fall even if you said I was wrong

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my personality


When you’re caught in a lie
And you got nothing to hide
When you’ve got nowhere to run
And got nothing inside

It tears right through me
You thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my personality

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my, just myself
Just myself
I’m not perfect but I keep trying

 

  

The sun sets, night arrives
My love is only untimely
My heart beats quicker than my footsteps
Today, too, I follow you

I cry, I smile, I cry
One person's lonely thoughts
Using tears
To wipe away your face reflected on the red petals

Gazing dumbly at your visage
I unknowingly smile with you
I though that this is an unattainable dream
And so, my eyes fill with tears

It is not only fate, to give up again and again
Although my heart remembers each parting deeply
A moment of giving up turns into heavy burdens
I can never forget you

I cry, I smile, I cry
My lonely thoughts
My unsettled life
Let me be peaceful for one day

You, who appears in my sporadic life
I will make you mine in the next life

Gazing dumbly at your visage
I unknowingly smile with you
I though that this is an unattainable dream
And so, my eyes fill with tears

Sucky News.

okay... second post of the day ...
some breaking news just come up,
tmr i'll be admitted to alexandra hospital due to my fever and 
embarrassingly i may be having pile,
which is a painful lump near the asshole, which
is cause by 
 One theory is that piles are a result of a weakness of the tissue that connects the anal cushions 
to the muscle layers underneath. In combination with frequently straining while passing hard
bowel movements, this can cause the anal cushions to slide out of their usual place and down the rectum 
(. if u wanna see the definition please highlight the above area)   

so sucky right?
firstly the doctor will ask what's wrong you?
and i'll like have to say i have 3 areas having problem, 
firstly my fever, secondly my asshole, and lastly my irritating cough ...


sadist right???


ok i don need compassion, it's embarrassing and aso 
it sucks..
 

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update update update...

last week been a high physical training week with lots
of talking cocks and craps.. we did like 3 physical training daily.
we did like strength traingin, swimming, jogging, and lots of excercise like shit..
 so funny.. i got a bunch of bunk mates who does the weirdess things in town, like
dancing nake/ just underwear(white color wif stain on the back...)
 and we have this sex conversion every time promptly afr all 3 meals.. 
haha.. and of course i'm the guru...


as for this week, we took our first "wife",
SAR 21 which means Singapore assault riffle 21st century .. weight ard 4 kg,
and due to this gun, we had to wake up at 3.45 am and get shouted to out on 
our uniform and aso a long march and lastly a ceremony which lasted 2 hrs.
starting next is the handling course for the riffle and aso test...
but luckly me i pass, not only i brought back a good mark i 
aso left a mark on my left knee as i fell into the freaking fuck spoil drain,
which hit my knee... ouch and aso came up with a freaking sickening fever when i was force to 
see doctor as i know it's better to train than to see the medical officer there...
i got drip, ok.. not that bad.. but the skill they've for poking a needle into you?
..... try asking a blind to do it for u.. i think the blind will do better..
haha
 super fever now still running one at 38.1 haha
everything sucks in here..
but your picture is the only thing that relax my body and soul and put
me to slp really love looking at ur pictures...
how i wish u were just here by my side.
 

 

will u miss mi?

 

Lost for words...

army suck as usual, super training in the rain.. from wet to dry and dry to wet again..
half of the company is sick and so as i.. fever 38.6..
still training like i am okay..
so lost for words..


so much sms..
so much misses..
so much pictures..
all just make me more quiet and eat lesser day by day..

slim down till 88kg goodness from 93.. 
not feeling well but really getting fit as in shape..
taking all this hurt in the heart as an motivation to carry on running ..
till i drop... i must slim down, i must be fit and aso move on...

'Cause I'm here for you

Please don't walk away

And please tell me, you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will

Pull my strings just for a thrill

And I know, I'll be okay

Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

1 songs to share..  

chipmunks version
Lyrics..
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo


PS: So wad do u see in your future girl?

i saw u.... how about u?

Training with pride.

Had quite a tough training in there, 

i mean physically, haha.

manage to slim down 4 kg for 2 weeks.. gosh!!

realli cool isn't it?
had a bad cough, fever, and infected sore throat.
must be my body not adapting to all this weathers 
and rain thus worsely training hard. 

But somehow everytime when i wanna give up, 
wanna just let it pass, this her who manage to pull mi up ,
by just think about her. realli amazing isn't it.


she asked mi if i'm realli so crazy ovr this her,
she ask if i aim to be the next one breaking her heart,
but why didnt she ask mi...
will i ever be with her for life?

what if we got tgt? 
what if i have the ability to patch her hearts back everytime she's down?


so mani wad ifs..... 
but i'll still be waiting  and gonna prove to her tt 
i'm just the chosen one...


2 years is a real test to me... 
i wanna be with u, i wanna take u too have fun,
i wanna take u traveling, a famili, a life,
a day not without u.. even if i was to move on..


i nid to ensure u got the right man for u.. as
I'm sure u're the right girl i've ever met.

i thought i saw someone very familar who looks like you,

the slight curl but messy hair!..

haha but after i board the freaking bus, 

i decided not to turn behind to confirm if it was you.

i took it as it was you standing there.

                                                   i think i'll pull through it and be a real man,

                                                  my aim after this 2 years? o.o is to get a freaking car lic.
                                                  and drive ard looking for her and find her.

                                                  i don wanna lose, even if really had to let go?

                                                  i will only do so after driving her around for a unagi bento.

last day to army! omg!! 

freaking hair gng to disappear le!! haha

army man! 

jia you.:)

 

Countdown to Army

 

2 days to Army, 

wonder how will i look like without hair?

haha! i believe a whole lot of people

can't wait to see my curly hair gone.

so much things having to let go again

okay this blog is really aun-believeable k , 

i'm gng to blog down my this 2 years army life..

so better stay tune weekly and see how i  get

tekan and lots of fun to share o.o 

so hereby thanks to yiwen,

up with such a lovely blog name

make sure u come to my simple blog o.o

otherwise will sms u until u FAINT  oi, 

and like my blog mention i'm still waiting o.o

Hope all the people enjoy my blog and make sure u visit weekly la.

thank you for all the care and love o.o

walk with me and travel with me k